I hear the words.

I am an auditory learner.

I was thinking about this the other day and realized that my idea of focusing is whispering the words I am reading and thinking to myself.  Might have been half-asleep when they taught studying techniques in high school but I think I'm starting to figure out a few ways that I'll have an easier time with it.

Case in Point:

When I was working in the cash office at my old job my co-workers picked on me.  Just jokingly.  The reason for this "taunt" was that I mumbled to myself when I was counting money.  It didn't matter whether I was counting $96.52 or $9000.00, I still counted them at a low tone out loud.  That way if someone came into the office and was speaking or being loud I didn't lose what I was concentrating on.  I usually got a "you talking to yourself again, eh?"  I usually just replied with a SHHH! or a sarcastic remark and went back to my counting.

I've also realized that when I'm teaching myself something I feel the massive need to tell everyone I know the things I've learned.  Most of the time my family and friends really aren't that interested in the subject but they put up with it just to appease me.  Thank goodness for their patience!  This has actually helped to cement the things that I have learned over the years in my mind.  Mike always asks me how I remember such little tiny details from years past and most definitely I think this "auditory" pattern of speaking helps.

When Mike and I have fought I've felt more satisfied and resolved listening to him than actually doing the talking.  

This "auditory" ability will definitely help me in my career choice.  After all psychology is all about knowing how to listen (mainly listen) and communicate back to the other person you're counseling.  I've learned that it takes very little actual speaking to make another person feel better, most just need to get things off their chest and tell someone about it.  Sometimes people say things out loud to another and their path suddenly seems clearer.  All it takes is a receiving ear on the other end.

So I think I've figured out the mind-set I need for going back to school. 

I need to look at it as a "personal project."  When researching infertility I dove deep into every book and online resource I could think of.  Some days I had 3 books I was reading at once while looking at a website trying to make everything correlate.  Making notes, charts, and lists of things I needed to do and what not to do.  THAT is the type of gumption that will get me through school.  I might even use that example in my interview with the admissions counselor.

I know there will be some subjects that bore me to death but I am just going to have to push through.  Try to imagine the class as a "home renovation" "trip planning" or a new health issue that I MUST research.... Maybe I can trick myself.  At least it's worth a shot.

I'm nervous but extremely excited at the same time.  Nervous because I'm not quite sure what to expect.  (can't learn EVERY detail before I go back)  And Excited because well.... how could I not be ?!?

(To end:  As I wrote this post I mouthed every word of it AND I think I'm going to read it like that before posting!)