Many years ago I had a dream. It was around the time that Mike and I got married. I was very unhappy at the time. I hated the town we lived in and felt like I had no one around. The past few weeks have brought on some crazy, "life explaining" events and this dream popped into my head like it happened the other night.
I was in a building with 2 rooms, walked into the adjoining room and laying in a stroller was a crying baby. I had not given birth to this babe. Not an ounce of my soul biologically recognized this small child. I leaned over, picked up the baby, and felt a love for this blonde, curly haired small babe that only a mother could feel.
I loved that dream and did not want it to end. But I did not pay attention until years later.
Maybe my heart was trying to tell me something that 5 plus years ago. I could've avoided so much strife. So many painful nights of laying in bed praying, wondering why me?
You might be wondering how I connect this to what I am about to tell you next. How does this connect to the title? Well the little boy in South Carolina is not going to happen. I'm ok about it. He went to one of his mother's cousins and has a great home. No tears, I'm ok. It's just not time yet.
The only thing this tells me is that now I have a small bit of a clearer path. I know the route I am supposed to take. That dream many years ago was a small glimpse into my intuitive nature. I've realized that years ago something was trying to tell me that we are meant to adopt. Without saying that I regret not paying attention, I am coming to the right time to put that dream into action.
Numerology.
I believe that God encompasses everything. Good and bad. Reality and the supernatural. I believe that God created the supernatural to broaden our horizons. To understand a greater meaning to life. Things are not always cut and dry if that's what you choose to believe. I claim Christianity as my religion. I believe it is a good starting point to learning how to live. But I also believe to understand the greater picture, God has provided other opportunities to learn.
My favorite number has always been 7. Just about 2 weeks ago I found out that I am a 7. Learning these things have been so very interesting to me. I can look at my "life chart" and see parallels to real life events that have taken place. I do believe there is a science to numbers. It has explained so much about why I have handled things the way I have.
"7" is considered the lonely number. They are kind and compassionate but have periods of self-inflicted isolation. I have repeatedly done this to myself since I was a young teen. But I've learned this is much needed. 7's need time to be alone with their thoughts. Time to figure out the meanings of life. Time to take spiritual journeys, hone in on key instincts and intuition, without the pressures of outside influences. To be a 7 is to figure out your path on your own. This doesn't mean that I don't listen to others, just that I take it into consideration. If it works into my master plan, I may listen but it may be 4 months after I am told. 7's also have the greatest things happen to them during their darkest moments of isolation and when they least expect it. Since I was a young girl I have questioned my depth of thinking and spiritual quests. This is my life path. Having the ability to seek out knowledge (whatever it may be), gain wisdom and give advice as I am sought out.
My chart is very interesting. I am happy with it. According to the chart I am just now entering a time period (27/28) where family and friends will be my focus after going through a trying relationship period. (The great infidelity) I have learned that my husband and I are very compatible though. It's all about rebuilding and strengthening bonds with family and connections. We will adopt during this next time period and truly set up our family. During this time my challenges are a number 0 which means I have a freedom to choose my path. That will not be easy though. Meaning whatever I get into I can have a full range of challenges to deal with encompassing all of the numbers traits.
I will deal with a period of independence, creativity and finally maturing into an 11.
11 is a great number. It basically states that my lifelong journey of spirituality and the existence of life will culminate into a wise and prophetic state in old age. There is a possibility of spiritual leadership in my path. This doesn't have to be confined to any one religion.
I've also been researching my friends and family. I've learned a ton about different people. I wanted to do this so I can better understand where they come from in situations. I want to be able to give advice to people knowing ways that they will better understand what I am saying. I wanted to know why certain people have had such a profound influence on me and why I have felt so connected to certain people. Sometimes it's easier to read another than it is to analyze my own path. But within understanding them, I learn more about myself. If that makes any sense at all.
The main thing that I have learned about this journey is that everyone wants pretty much the same out of life. No matter the religion, sex, race, or status. The only difference in people is the way they go about getting it.
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